Beyond Fiction

Well, I suppose you have all been wondering where I’ve been. I surely hope that you have! If you would allow me to, I’d like to tell you about that but you might have to put up with a little rambling and with a little of my emotional outbursts. That’s just the way it is.

If you haven’t kept up with my saga, let me give you a little recap. About 7 months ago I (or should I say my wife and I) decided to make a major change in our life. We decided to leave everything we have known, our good jobs and our family and friends and move to North Carolina. Why? Because my son, daughter-in-law and grandson were there. Those grand-babies make you do strange things!

To make a long story short, it didn’t work out. We left June 12th and by Sept. 21 we were moving back to Texas. In this process, we left all our furniture and a big portion of our processions in North Carolina. We put our pictures, keepsakes and computers and televisions in storage. I’ve made one trip back and gotten half our stuff but we still have more to get.

In the last few months it has crossed my mind more than once that we would have been just as well off to have stayed in North Carolina and struggled along there! Starting completely over here has NOT been easy and we still have so much to do in order to get back on our feet! It would have probably been easier to have gone through it where we were at but we have to live with the choices we made. There are no do-overs in life! We only get one chance and have to be content with whatever choices we make.

The last 2 months have been hard. Holiday season and we have no (extra) money, struggling along and we are missing our grandson so much! I’ve been in no mood to blog and have basically just hidden in my room and played FarmVille just to have something to occupy my mind. Christmas seemed like just another day this year. I believe it was the worst Christmas I’ve ever had! Not be able to give my daughters what they wanted. Having our car repossessed and haveing to get a used car that now has to have the transmission fixed.

Nonetheless, I’m still hoping that the New Year will bring us new hope. I have no intentions of staying as we are now! I will do what I must to make things better for my family in 2010.

So, back to the question. What about my blog? Well, unfortunately for some, I am not going away. In bad times (and in good times) it is always good to be able to share what you feel with others. I will continue to write about my research, my family, and my life. It may be a little different than in the past but I will write it anyway. This blog has sustained me through many trials, frustrations, and heartaches. It’s also been there when things were going great. I hope it will continue to be there in the future.

I cannot and will not commit to being able to post everyday. My life and my family will dictate how often I can post here. When I do post, I will try to make it worth your while to read. I’ll begin to try participating in blog prompts, such as Wordless Wednesday and Tombstone Tuesday, and will try to get back to my 2 favorite blog carnivals. There will be dry spells, of that I am sure, but I will try to make them few and far between.

No one knows for certain what the future holds. For me, I just want to slow down and take time to enjoy the present. My oldest daughter graduates this year and my youngest will graduate in 2012. I need to enjoy my time with them now, because I’ve learned that once they graduate and begin to start their own life your relationships change. My children have been my life for so long I could never imagine it without them, but I have to face the facts that soon they will have their own lives, their own families and my life will have to make another sudden change.

I’m sorry if I rambled or said anything that I shouldn’t have. I just wanted to write what is on my heart. I hope that you all had a wonderful Christmas and I pray that you all will have a very happy and safe New Year. I wish you all the best.

Thanks for stopping in,

Ken